Preservation

Katrina Kaye

Left to myself,

I sink,

and allow eyes to close.

To be

still,

stone,

ever vigilant.

Left to myself,
I will cease to exist
long before death
has the nerve to
visit my doorstep.

But I resist decay
by statuing
against chaos.
I close lips,
but keep eyes peeled.

I listen,

listen,

listen.

I am not
unchanging.
I rattle

back and

forth.

Left to myself,
I will fade
long before the sun
can bleach my bones.

So I protect the beat
of my heart and

feel each
breath fill

the empty cavern
of my being.

I preserve myself.

Hibernation
is not always
about rest;
it is about

 survival.

The only way
to make it to
the next season
is to let this one pass.

Three Days

Katrina Kaye

Allow body release
from the weight
of the last few months.

Insides crave to be carved
free from that which binds.

Feel skin loosen.
Bone peak through
what dares remain.

Tonight, the sunset serves witness
to this request. Not for rebirth,
not for pledging anew,
but as a break to the mold.

Three days is all that is needed
to take the thickness of torso,
grounding of muscle, and shake loose.

Allow healing,

even if not complete,
even if only to prepare
for the next cut.

Break unconscious acts while
there is still time for forgiveness.

In three days, the body will refresh,
like creek water on sunny morning,
like the sound of screen door swaying open.

In three days,
the patterns will break.

May new ones form in their wake.

“Three Days” is previously published in Saturday’s Sirens (2020) and “no longer water” (2024).

Stay

Katrina Kaye

and when they
ask: were there tears?

yes, there were tears

and when they
wonder: where you angry?

no, I felt no anger
only loss, only failure

but his arms
were shaking with
so much anger

yes, there was sadness,
not exactly confessions

I didn’t want to know his
he already knew mine

denial? bargaining?
yes, those were there too

but in the end
he never asked me to stay
and I never asked him
if I could

“Stay” is previously published in Brickplight (2021).

Brickplight – Katrina Kaye