The Forest

Katrina Kaye

Our crowns lost their jewels
in the last days of October,
scattering red and gold
from heaven to earth
and everywhere in between.

But our heartwoods out measures
the sapwood by multitude,
and our trunks have become stable
thick and knotted around midrib.

No longer lean or smooth,

            but sturdy

tough skinned,
holding the nicks and gnashes
of more passing seasons,

the bleaching of the sun,
and the freezing of tips.

The canopies we bloomed
to shade our earth have become
thinner and thinner each year:
patchy,

holes of sunlight break through,

We have become womb to wildlife.
We hold the nest safe
from the reach of prey,
and though our skin may be marked,
tattooed, stretched,
though they contain wounds and rot,
so much more than rind remains.

We remain.

We are not
pathetic creatures,
even if we no longer have
the pliable limbs of our youth

and our leaves no longer
reflourish in the spring.

There is no weakness here
and the twisting to roots
that tangle like serpents
after their own tails and limbs
contorted by patches of decay
create a display of ancient brilliance.

We are true and long lived and wise.
We are radiant.

“The Forest” is previously published in Kelp Journal (2024).

Lullaby

Katrina Kaye

the past plays wind instruments
outside bedroom window
a lullaby from a childhood
that slipped by too fast

it’s a tune that has gone unheard
for decades, yet you seem to know
the arrangement of notes
and can anticipate the changing pitch

what melody does the present
sound like other than static
from the television
left on across the room

there is no rush to end the lullaby
it is not the numbed silence from the stillness
of strings and quietude of auditorium we want
but the continuance of the melody

how can we hear the song
when the present is a distracting buzz
when the future is blaring its inevitability
so loud it rattles the windows

this song isn’t urgent to finish
but to be heard as it crests and crescendos
across the bedroom from east facing window
illuminating the dust that sways through stale air

“Lullaby” is previously published in No Longer Water (2024).

Desperation

Katrina Kaye

is not merely a flash of color.
You can caress it,

cradle it,

wrap it around your fist
like the links of a chain.
It pinches the skin,
cuts to the pink.

I am not one to chew lips
or graze nail tips, but
on nights like this

desperation

crawls beneath surface,

lurks inside rough veins roped around arm,
treads under the soft tissue of neck,
I can see it pulse.

The salt of it cannot be denied:
the stink cannot go ignored.
I have been playing fill in the blanks
with crossed eyes only
to come to the conclusion
that all of this,

ALL OF THIS

is for nothing.

Can’t you see that?

The hiss of heartbeat
is not generous enough
and with every scratch
the healing takes a little longer.
If the skin is already dead,
then the venom will recede.
Not even a scar remains.

The cut was never that deep.

I tended my own wounds
before anyone ever had
a chance to see them.

 

“Desperation” is previously published in Saturday’s Sirens (2021).