Woke

/ Katrina Kaye

Katrina Kaye

our task
as opened eyes

is to blink back
the tears of yesterday

allow the pain and refuse
to hide behind the shield

it is not just to see
it is to understand

and know better

 

After the Circus

/ Katrina Kaye

Katrina Kaye

the heat of the day left with the sun
but the earth still hums with warmth 

this is how to ascend
not with fireworks

but with breath

not with certainty

but with hope 

and I 

 (despite the dirt sulked in the creases of bare feet
despite the burn scar that  gently tints my body in ash) 

I am able to exist underneath a sky 
bursting with stars over the tops of tall trees
that sway, a gentle back and forth, 

 these are metaphors of connections never rationalized
a foreshadow of the time I too will give back to the earth 

and I am eager to rebuild 
not with bricks

but with memory

not with mortar

but with mourning 

I am fresh and unsoiled,
comforted in being so close to the earth 

October

/ Katrina Kaye

Katrina Kaye

Like any good fortune teller, I know when the leaves will start to fall. After all, prophets are really just people who pay attention, and after 45 years I’ve started to catch on to the comings and goings of this world. The light and the dark, the heat and the cold. I know it’s too early for the heaters – still another week or so until I can truly find comfort in my wool sweater and fuzzy slippers. But the cold will come, first in the dark of night, then spreading into the morning, until it eventually embraces the day, clinging to the earth under the bright of winter sun.

By now, I am used to the cycle of the seasons. By now, I can predict the fullness and emptiness of the moon. By now, I should anticipant my mood swings, know when the pills stop working, have an innate knowledge of when my body needs a fast, a night in, a few hours of solitude. By now, I should be able to know how to take care of all that I need.  The trees have it down; their wardrobes already picked out for the fall, the winter, the spring, and eventual return to summer – and repeat and repeat and repeat.