Twenty Poems of Love by Pablo Neruda 

Katrina Kaye

You should have bought me a book of poetry. You could have inscribed it, scrawled signature, a pet name, an inside joke to remind me.

Remind me of an acoustic guitar plucked slow and staccato, mingled with a baritone voice and words of revolution, the fumble of fingers.

Remind me of a motel room off the highway, the road roaring in the backdrop, the air crisp through cracked window as I sucked breath through your lips.

You should have wrapped it in shiny paper before placing it in envelope, addressed my name on orange folds with your unknown, but I imagine, careless script.

 A token to remind me of songs about trains, long and slow, my head on your chest listening to the horses of your heart. Coffee at midnight and hunger pains at dawn.

The drip of your sweat falling from your face to mine, the cramp in the arch of my foot. It could have arrived a week late but still in time to souvenir my shelf, a keepsake to outlast you and me.

You could have said your favorite poem reminds you of me, it would become my favorite too and I could recite it in my head long after I forget the sound of your voice.

If you told me of one that you found beautiful, then when you called me beautiful, I might believe you. I’d know you have the ability to recognize beauty.

The beauty of rose gardens guarded by chain linked fence and two rows of razor wire. The beauty of a white no trespassing sign and the way your eyes twinkled as they sought a way around barrier.

I was disappointed when my mailbox remained empty. When the gift you were rumored to give, never arrived. I wouldn’t even know your handwriting if I saw it.

I crave the tangible, weight of hard cover, furl of pages, underlined passages. I would like to see it on my shelf, fulfilling a promise never given, providing a reminder of our time, a memento of something precious once longed for but never actualized.

Impermanence

Katrina Kaye

Like a sunburn, I know
you will absorb into me
and fade into memory.

You cut me under the skin.

The impression of your
hands leave no stain.
I am all too aware of
the impermanence of things.

There’s a Girl

Katrina Kaye

There’s a girl
at the Route 66 gas station
asking for change.

You don’t have any,
but you offer to buy
her a soda on your credit card
as you pay for a pack of cigarettes
and a cup of coffee.

She is grateful,
says that’s all she really needs.

She’s with her mother,
a tired, silent woman,
grey hair greased to scalp,
sitting on the curb out front.
The old woman never speaks.

This girl has tattoos on her neck,
one by her eye.
Amateur ink scribbled
by shaking hands.

She’s thanks you again,
says she has make up to sell,
nose rings,
other small snatchable items
that seep out of her pocket.

You listen,
you refuse.

She won’t let you leave till you
take a bottle of nail polish
in gratitude.
It’s a color you will never wear.

You know her,
this girl,
with the too thin limbs
and chapped lips.

You almost were her
once.
Asking for change,
grateful for just a kind reply.

You still feel ashamed
for all you had,
that you let slip away.

She asks for a ride.
You lie and say you’re going the other way.
She nods, smiles,
knows where your line sticks.
Your eyes reflect each other
as both recognized the person
you could have become.

“There’s a Girl” is previously published in Chasing Rabbits (2014).