Impulse

Katrina Kaye

When is the last time
you held sand,
felt the fall
of each granule,
and wished for nothing
more than the warmth
your allowed to slip from hands?

I am lingering deep
in a list of what
could have been and
relishing the simple
I have attained.

I call them albas,
morning songs,
gibberish.
They are nothing to anyone,
but the melody
reminds me of a memory.

Yes, time has passed me;
forgotten my name
and kept
rolling through
like the weather,
like the waves,
like the pull of the moon.
These things aren’t forever
despite how far they stretch.

After all,
there is no such thing as forever.
Merely here and merely now.
Even our breath is compulsory.

Do we continue the ritual and fail,
or do we learn and do we go on?

Where does the fall take us,
if not to the next season?

“Impulse” is previously published in Saturday’s Sirens (2020).

backdrop

Katrina Kaye

I am the sound of
flapping wings
when no birds
are seen.

I am backdrop,
waiting in alcove
for a cue that has
never come.

I am a walk on,
a sideways glance,
a choked confession
moments too late.

Was there ever
a time I wasn’t
easily forgotten?

I can’t help
but to beg to
scar this world
in the worse
possible way
just to leave
noticeable
footprints.

“backdrop” is previously published in Rabbits for Luck (2016).

Orchard

Katrina Kaye

I’ve passed this place
a thousand times,
but this is the first
I’ve bothered to pluck
fruit from tree and
allow it to squeeze in
my palm. I swat flies
from eyes. They have
a tendency to hover here;
eager for sweetness, they
block my view, twist sight
into kaleidoscope. I have
spent my life resisting
the sugar that sticks between
tiny hairs which litter
my thighs; but now, I
am learning how to cover
my tracks. To slip secret
through yard and wet my lips
on the ripe. I have never
been one for proper manners.
I wade into orchard,
follow the sound of the
records your mother spins
from house. Wail along
to the deep voice which
balloons through the trees.
No one feels hunger in
quite the same way.

“Orchard” is previously published in Chasing Rabbits (2014).