Katrina Kaye
There is a crack inside me
impossible to see with the naked eye
because it is covered with flesh and bone,
muscle and vein,
but underneath
all the intricacies that have made up
this form there is a vacant space,
a hollow.
There was a time I rushed to fill it,
to store people and places and simple memories.
There was a time when the emptiness terrified me.
People should not have holes.
Are we not made
of solid stuff?
But I have made peace with the void within.
I am no longer afraid of the echo
of my voice.
I no longer seek to be filled.
Instead I sit quiet and cross legged
feeling the shelter
that comes
from nothingness.
Within that hollow,
I can allow eyes to close
and pulse to slow.
I can breathe deep and be;
exist, continue.
I can find peace.
I am not
limited by my body
or the emptiness it holds.
“Empty” is previously published in Metonym Journal (2024).