Katrina Kaye

after Wallace Stevens

I

Iron gates surround blue doored apartment.
All that moves are the seasons
passing by curtained window shielding a ghost within.

II

I am of solemn mind,
Like a house
built by hands which resemble his.

III

He sweeps me in a whirlwind of autumn leaves
and spends the fall in a pantomime of eternal love.

IV

A man and a woman
can stay warm on a November night.
A man and a woman and another woman
are the heat running out on a December morning.

V

I do not know which to prefer,
the sweet lies of a memory
or the blue eyes of the bartender,
the bed heated by his hunger
or the emptiness just after.

VI

Icicles hang abandoned
dripping in the April sun.
The shadow of a man I knew
crosses it, to and fro.
The glare
redeemed by the shades
prepares me for a new spring.

VII

The thin man of summer
prefers golden birds to shy sparrows.
But that doesn’t stop him
from a momentary blindness
by my chestnut feathers.

VIII

I have always been a sucker for accents
and long fingers plucking strings;
I know, too,
that difference of enchantment and truth
sometimes I just don’t care.

IX

When the third blue eyed boy flew out of sight,
I still had not found the imprint of you.
I stop retracing the same circles.

X

In solitary contentment,
I release myself
reflecting on lovers and expectations.
The idea of romance unravels.

XI

You rode over the state line
for a weekend visit,
but a fear pierced you,
and you fell asleep in hotel room
leaving me waiting at window table
watching birds perch on telephone wires.

XII

My mouth cannot hold on to bitterness,
but it does not retain the flavor of hope either.

XIII

Afternoon crept into evening,
and I lounge in the house
I made alone.
I no longer look for home
in the cracked shells of the past.